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I will never ever ever ever ever admit this in my "real life".

I broke up with him yesterday.

I did it via email.

Because when I have tried to do it face to face I never end up having succeeded.
     Because seeing him is to feel that connection so strong I can't contemplate severing it.
          I'm not even sure if it can be severed.

Then today (I am so ashamed), I changed the background photos on my Mac to photos of him and I, or him with my family.

WHAT
              THE
                       HELL
                                  IS
                    WRONG
        WITH
ME?

I have lost my mind. Totally. Completely. Bring in the padded room and straight jacket, because everything I have ever stood for has gone right out the window.