A Kiss Can Tell.........

You know that kiss you gave me just before leaving today? Yeah, the one that completely blew my mind? The one that left me shaking, unable to compose myself? The one unlike any I have ever had before? You know that kiss that left me stunned?

That would be the same kiss that you sank all that emotion, passion, energy and raw primal-ness into.

You do know which kiss I'm talking about, right??

Good, now that you know................................


FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU
FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU
FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU
FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU
FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU

Yes, that's right. I am soooo angry and SO DONE. What the hell gives YOU the right to attempt to manipulate MY emotions? What gives you the right to betray my trust, and then try to defend and justify why it was OK? What gives you the right to act like you couldn't care one way or the other when I tell you that, due to your betraying my trust that I can no longer see you as anything more than acquaintances? What gives you the right to be so damn cold and distant and to make decisions and choices that affect not only me, but those little ones closest and dearest to me negatively? What gives you the right to completely impale me with your depth of emotion at the very beginning only to jerk it all away from me and choose lead me to believe it was only manipulation for you to get what you wanted? What gives you the right to let me spend two weeks believing that you don't give a shit at all after getting what you wanted? What gives you the right to show such blatant disregard for my feelings, go out of your way to convince me you don't care at all AND THEN LAY THAT DAMN KISS ON ME??

Let me explain something to you, since in the year of knowing me you obviously missed it.

I do NOT play games.

I am ONLY monogamous in my relationships and nothing you say or do will change that.

I will be damned if you will manipulate my emotions.

I will NEVER stand by while you push me to believe that you do not care at all (just so that you can go fuck whoever you want, whenever you want) and then when I am done and walk away, throw me crumbs out to bring me back.

That kiss........ CRUMBS.

Screw that. I told you from day one, I don't play second fiddle. I'm either the ONLY female you are catering to and focusing on a relationship with, or I'm out of the picture.

You will not treat me the way that you have and then throw a kiss towards me to show me that you really do care and don't want me to leave.

MANIPULATE....................... GAMES..............................CRUMBS.....................SECOND FIDDLE...............POLY.........................FUCK YOU.

Yeah, I'm pissed.

Yeah, it will most likely linger a while.

Yeah, I'm moving forward, dating whoever the hell I choose, and not touching you again.

Fuck you. You have no right to manipulate other's emotions. You have no right to keep me at arms lengths and then try to pull me back in when I choose to walk away because I DESERVE BETTER.

Stick with your drama queens that use you when they need something, that threaten you when they don't get their way, and that give you mediocre sex at best where you have to be constrained and hold back all that you truly enjoy. Stick with the ones that can give you that crazy psycho attention you want. The ones that you can keep at arms length and drag back in when they start to leave with manipulation. Stick with them and remember, I am not them. I never will be. Games are for children. NOT ME.