My reply to a message from someone I’d been talking to for a while who, after a few drinks, offered up the question, “What do you want me to do to you,” followed by a string of specific questions:
So, for me to tap into my innermost freak, it is based on the relationship I’ve developed with the person. There are, most assuredly, various levels of trust. A person I would be comfortable letting smack my ass may not be a person I’d be comfortable allowing to choke me.
I am at a place in life where I want to take the time to build the type of relationship where I can trust on the deepest of levels. The type d relationship where Id try things I’d typically say no to just because of the level of trust.
I am so over mediocrity and average on all levels. Intellectually, motivation, aspirations, sexually.... I want to find a multifaceted person that is open to building trust and whose very lifestyle inspires me.
Yet, also one that is totally cool with letting me live my own life, raise my own children, and be separate and apart from interacting with that.
I want to develop a relationship with that type of person where I’d sale my soul if they asked.
For that person, it wouldn’t be necessarily about specific acts I would or would not want. There would be very few hard limits, no viable safe word, and merely a connection of spirits where every intimate act flowed between us.
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